You are a beautiful person and you need to stop being so hard on yourself. You’ve made it this far in life through lots of difficulties. That was you. That was you getting through that shit. You owe a lot of what good things you have in life to the past you, too. No one has fought for you so hard as yourself. No one works for you as hard as yourself.
Fall in love with yourself. You’re worth it.
Even if today doesn’t turn out how you’d like it to, that’s okay. Even if it’s your fault, that’s okay. You’re allowed to make mistakes, and it’s not like you can’t handle a rough day or two – look at all the ones you’ve been through so far! Even if all you’ve done in your life is fuck up, you lived through it. One thing you are really good at is existing up until this moment. It’s your strength that has carried you through the hard times. Believe in your strength to persist.
You are a dragon. All your past pains and difficulties are wound up inside of you, strengthening you. Other people are going to try and convince you that’s not true. Maybe you’ll try to convince yourself that’s not true. But if you have done anything wrong in this life, lying to yourself or allowing others to lie to you about who you are is one of the biggest mistakes you can make. But it’s easily correctable.
Look at everything you’ve done so far. All the hard times you got through. Maybe with some help sometimes – we all need help sometimes. But you lived through them. You survived them. And now you carry those things with you, and they hone you like a knife.
The world will try to dull you or to convince you not to swing out when needed for it’s own selfish ends. Don’t let that happen. Be true to yourself – the person that has carried you so far. In this life, no matter what we try to do for others, the one and only person who ever has and ever will truly carry us on is ourselves. No one in this life has been more true to you. For every accident or mistake or even active self harm you have engaged in, your heart kept beating, your brain kept processing, your stomach kept gurgling. You have carried on, even when you thought you could not. That is what it means to be strong.
If there is anyone you owe anything, it is yourself. If there is anything in this world worth fighting for, anyone who has done you right, it is yourself.
Maybe you can’t love yourself today, and that’s okay. It’s hard. It takes time. But maybe you can fight for yourself today. And even if you fall, I know you can get up. Because now you know – now you know what’s worth fighting for.
It’s you.
Hey, so I was digging through my happy things tag and came across this, what I wrote about two years ago when I first started this blog and had maybe 100 followers. It was as much a message to myself as it was to others, during a really dark time in my life. I wanted to re-share it.
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