Oh lord TT… see in the books one of the most powerful and soul-crushing images for me has always been the description in POA of Sirius Black laughing after he[peter] blew up that muggle block; there is just something so gut-wrenchingly /real/ about his breakdown, his raw hysteria, when he /knows/ the truly unfathomable. And you, my friend, have brought to life with such injurious clarity the visceral, incomprehensible horror that broke Sirius Black.